I spent much of my life falling away from God, being restored; the repeating the process. However, I've learned not to condemn myself for failings; for that self condemnation was what drove me away, as I felt too guilty, too unworthy, too prone to sin to return to God and stay the course. If we cannot yet break our chains, we can either let them hold us down or drag us back...or we can make a conscious decision to pick up our chains and carry them as we follow Christ in spite of our weakness until the Lord shatters those chains.